State of Play

Wolfpack Mountain Bike Couriers Co-Operative 1988
Me, Bob, Steve, Punky Dod

It's not been a great weekend. I'm in a daze most of the time. I woke Saturday am and felt nauseous and while i managed to teach I still felt somnolent (word of the day on Dictionary.com!) so rested the rest of the day.

We had planned to go to the cinema on Saturday night to watch State of Play and i perked up enough to go along to it and i did enjoy the film. A definite must see with a great story line not needing special effects to impress you. I was surprised Helen Mirren had a small part but I think Russell Crowe does his best acting as a drinking overweight slob rather than as an action hero. We went to the local Independent as well which was a pleasant experience.

I woke this morning to a beautiful day and i felt pretty good. I took the dog for a walk and just after i showered i felt weak. I managed to coach the Thai Fighters session but went home and collapsed on the bed and woke up 2 hours later. I have since walked the dog and eaten, but am tip toeing around so not to wake Caz from her pre-night shift slumber.

Friday saw me nip to work to ask about meeting to start back at the Subsea7 office. The Dr has recommended 3 days at 3 hours a day and i think that would do as a starting point.

Nearly forgot, got an endoscopy tomorrow at 1pm!

Charles Darwin:

"To kill an error is as good a service as, and sometimes even better than, the establishing of a new truth or fact."

JKrishnamurti.org - Daily Quote The 'how to be free' only enslaves you

Do not make meditation a complicated affair; it is really very simple and because it is simple it is very subtle. Its subtlety will escape the mind if the mind approaches it with all kinds of fanciful and romantic ideas. Meditation, really, is a penetration into the unknown, and so the known, the memory, the experience, the knowledge which it has acquired during the day, or during a thousand days, must end. For it is only a free mind that can penetrate into the very heart of the immeasurable. So meditation is both the penetration and the ending of the yesterday.

The trouble begins when we ask how to end the yesterday. There is really no 'how.' The 'how' implies a method, a system and it is this very method and system that has conditioned the mind. Just see the truth of this. Freedom is necessary - not 'how' to be free. The 'how to be free' only enslaves you.

Beyond Violence - 54